incubated: the feeling of being in my tidied bedroom, where new growth has a chance to grow beyond a traumatic sprout.
Yesterday I wrote about my project of coming up with new words for new feelings. Like incrementum, for the feeling after taking a baby step towards the recovery of healthy energy.
When I started this journal thirteen years ago, and then abandoned it a few months later, and then started writing in it again, I wrote about the phenomenon of traumatic sprouts. The re-growth in a tree after there's been trauma, and the challenge of maintaining that re-growth.
Right now my clean bedroom feels like a fragile environment. I've rarely been able to sustain this environment for an extended period, and I wonder what impact that has on my ability to thrive and sustain success.
I hope by identifying the feeling of being incubated, and maintaining that emotion, that the energy that I grow here will become more stable.
