I'm in an angry and muddled place right now. Confusion. Caught in the middle of a teenage angst situation where I want to feel compassion for my son, but at the same time, I need to let him live the consequences of his decision. I'm never sure if I've prepared him well for life. Often it doesn't feel like it. But my job now is to take care of myself. And my mind is all over the place.
Time, perhaps, to get back to basics. Open awareness. Rest in it and listen to sound. Remember my basic goodness and Ben's basic goodness.
Begin again
