I'm back.
The desire to stand has returned, now that my financial stress is somewhat buffered by the deal with my landlady. I'm still anxious about my financial future, but I can pay my rent. Or rather, won't have to pay my rent this summer, and next.
More and more when I hear that nagging question "what do I want more than anything in the world" the answer I am giving is "well-being". I want wellbeing for myself, for Ben, for my family, and for everyone. I want to be well and I want to live in a world where people can be well. I can't force them to be well, but I can help them to be well. And I can only do that if I am well myself.
Last week I started a course on Human Computer Interaction. Our first assignment is called needfinding. It's a wonderful assignment because not only does it direct my attention to other people's needs, I realize that in identifying the needs of others we are often alerting ourselves to our own needs.
This is what I want to do from now on:
Build software that will prompt me to change my habits to create well being.
Build software that will prompt me to stand.
