Resting in flow

The flow is getting a little stronger, pings in my navel, my neck, lower back.  All signs that I'm re-connecting with my natural vitality. In this morning's meditation I spent some time just resting in the growing warm wetness of my navel area.
  In the Tergar program there isn't any specific guidance on this, but I can still apply the method.  In the same way I rest bare awareness on thoughts, feelings, body sensations, I can simply rest on this warmth.  In the same way that sound and awareness of sound can become one.  This flow and the awareness of the flow can become one.
 That said, I don't want to overdo it.  I've lost this connection to flow so many times, and I wonder if part of the problem is that I plunge in too far and too fast.  Feel the pings, rest in them. But also don't be afraid to let go and rest in open awareness.  Alternating between this and grounded open awareness will do more to stabilize this than getting lost in some blissful state of altered consciousness.
 Navel gazing.  That's always been a label of shame in the western world.  The dangers of getting caught up in flow is not something to be ashamed of. But it is something to be aware of.

my hypothesis

So I've had a hypothesis ever since I started this blog that Zhan Zhuang would lead me towards a good life. And not just a good life, but an amazing life. Because that's what an adventure should be, an experience of things that are amazing.

I still believe that, even though I keep letting go of my practice every time my life starts getting exciting. This is my challenge to maintain my practice through the exciting times. It's easy to take up my practice when my life has sunk into despair and I'm depleted of energy. The magnetic force that renews me is always there. But can I keep it up when I start to experience the high of success?

Maybe that's the wrong question. Will it still be there? Of course it is. This energy is always there. It never goes away. It is the essence of love. There.

But maybe that's why it's so important to take it slow. Even when all I want to do is stand. I need to take it slow and see how it slowly influences my decisions so that they lead to the kind of incremental success that doesn't blow itself up.