This week has been big week in my spiritual journey. I'm feeling a tremendous wakening of chi, kundalini, bochicitta, whatever it is. It's more powerful in me than it's ever been.
It started about a week ago with a fluttering in my throat. I'd been working on resting in the energy of my Tan Tien and then suddenly I started feeling this energy in my throat, like a trapped butterfly. I started to do a little research into throat chakras, and decided that this must be energy that is moving up, unblocking my very tense vocal chords. Resting in my vocal chords brings back a lot of childhood memories, not all good. So much fighting in my family, harsh words, abuse. This was a good opportunity to work that through.
Once the energy in my throat was worked through, I discovered an effervescence, that I suspect is the "taste of purification" that Shinzen Young talks about.
This is apparently a watershed moment in meditation, when you shift from meditating to have states of being, towards meditating as part of a process of purification. In this state you are content to face your pain, your suffering, your circumstances because you realize that the way you are experiencing this pain will make every future moment of your life better.
There are blocks, I know, to my power an energy. But I'm feeling more and more everyday that I'm working my way through them. I'm running, I'm eating better, I'm feeling better. I'm still feeling blocked in my writing, but I'm feeling confident that this can change.
There are perceptions and misconceptions that keep all this stagnation in place, and I know I probably don't see them yet. But I will.
It's going to be an exciting six months. Looking forward to finding out what's on the other side.
