So I didn't make it past Friday.
The excuse went this way. It's too hard to wait to find out what's happening in the final episodes of this series I've been following (okay, it's Girls). Maybe I can just make that the one thing that I watch. From that came the next episode of Episodes. From that the end of Parenthood. All good shows. And that's what I keep telling myself. These are all good shows. Shouldn't I be able to watch them?
To which I need to reply. Yes these are all good shows, but shouldn't I be able to give them up? These aren't real people and I'm encouraging my son to live a life comforted by entertainment, not comforted by friends and community.
Fresh start today. I can't just abandon this. So today I'm going to be on alert for the seductive reasons.
I'm going to go back to Pema Chodron's book on breaking old habits and I'm going to try again.
And I'm going to build new habits. Primarily evening meditation sessions. How I spend my evenings impacts my day. Deeply impacts my day. So I want to get back to evenings that are vital and rich with peace. Not drama.
Deep breath. Once again.
