This week I am no longer alone.
I've noticed of the course of many years of practice that if I manage to maintain a one hour meditation time for more than a couple of months that I start to feel an intelligence in my life. A voice starts to speak to me, to reassure me, to guide me, to bring my attention back to the present again and again. At times I've thought of this as my muse. But from now on I'm going to think of it as a daemon.
Not a demon. A daemon, in the Greek sense of the term, and energy that drives the soul. Thomas Moore, the Jungian psychologist, writes in Original Self, that the daemon is to the soul what the ego is to the self. If we are to live from the soul, from chi, from kundalini, from whatever vitality we've chosen to cultivate, having that intelligence that keeps us on the path is an essential drive.
Ben's been studying the Renaissance this week at school. So I'm conscious of this shift we made several centuries ago as a civilization to place man at the center of the world instead of God. What we ended up placing in the center was the ego. If we could shift again what would we place at the centre? I would like to think it would be the soul. Perhaps consciousness. Whatever this energy is that transports us to a better place, a more peaceful place, a more joyful place.
This week I have felt it become more central to my life, not just because of my daemon emerging. I've started to feel this kind of double body. Almost like double vision, but it's more like double feeling. Sometimes I see my heart as a green energy pulsating a little bit outside of and to the right of my body. Sometimes I just sit with waves and the rythms of the universe.
Last night I did a long meditation. Almost two hours and felt the undeniable deep warm coil of energy. Not the whole flow yet, distinct parts in my neck and my upper abdomen. Nothing imagined there. This was a physical energy.
Daemon has instructed me to stop watching T.V. and Netlix, so I don't have much else to do but to become aware of it.
The adventure continues.
