This morning is a tough one.
I'm consumed and distracted with anxiety and mania involving this upcoming court case with my landlady.
I don't have the concentration to stand. Or I don't believe I have the concentration to stand. I'm having some autistic moments.
I try to program my mind into iterated relaxation.
I listen to my hypnotherapy tape.
I try not to panic about my mother coming over today for a birthday dinner.
I repeat my hypnotherapy mantra. I am capable of whatever life throws at me.
I go and re-read my entries on stress.
I discover a post I wrote about going deeper. So I go and set my timer fr 20 minutes of going deeper. Soon enough I am surrounded in magnetic calm. In this place I know that I am capable of letting go of unecessary, debilitating stress.
I know it.
But it's still hard to keep it going throughout the day.
I will remind myself that this calm is available to me whenever I need it today.
