This morning in meditation I had and experience of what Tsonyi Rinpoche describes as "baby rigpa."
It felt like the natural result of two practices I've been toggling through all week, Dzogchen and meditating on dreams. I've been working on effortlessness in my meditation and the practice of what Mingyur Rinpoche describes as "chok zhak," the natural dropping down into buddha nature. I've also been pulling out an example dream that represents the work stress that I've been struggling with in recent weeks. I've been asking the Andrew Holocek question "who is dreaming this dream?."
Yesterday the answer to that question was the aggregate of work stress. There's no "me" that is generating that dream. Just stress throwing together all kinds of scenarios. And then the dream in real life. My stress creating all kinds of stories that distract me from real productivity and leadership.
Woke up in the middle of the night and grabbed for a guided meditation. Took the last week of Dzogchen, Cortland Dahl, guiding through the realization that everything is pure awareness.
Went back to sleep and had a different work stress dream.
This morning I sat with that sense of vulnerability, and out of it came this very pure sense of nowness. There were no dream, no past, no present. Just what is. I felt it as a thin channel running through me.
It was clarity, lucidity, but it was also love. Pure unconditioned love.
It felt safe, like home. It felt like real power
