I have not brought gratitude into my practice, my day, my routines as I intended to back in January.
Watched a cute video about new years eve resolutions that suggested that instead of annual goals we create annual themes. So far I've lost that theme, but I could put that up on my mission spreadsheet as a way of re-directing myself.
But first if I am going to make gratitude a practice, I need to recognize that it's hard. That grievance is my habit loop, not gratitude. Grievance collecting is something I was raised on, with two parents who were union officers. In times of stress this is what wakes up in me, this pattern of collecting all the slights and injustices real and imagined.
Can I train my heart to recognize how it closes around my vulnerability and how it can open to a stronger energy? And how do I keep to that training?
I can commit to the algorithm of Padmasambhava's Natural Liberation. First awareness of our disillusionment, then awareness of the preciousness of life. Bring that 1-2 in every practice.
