I have tried so many ways to free myself from the chaos and squalor of my living environment. I have tried the bit by bit, which I now think of as calories in, calories out. I get to a certain point, but my psyche simply iterates me back to despair.
I tried the Kondo method once before, but I think I stopped at paper, and possibly misinterpreted it as something I was supposed to complete in a weekend. I'm going to do a serious discarding and I'm going to do it all. I'm going to give myself the same six months that I've given myself with my weight. My weight is on track now. I know that intermittent fasting is going to bring down my insulin levels and that I will never have a weight problem again. I know that as deeply as I know that I will never smoke again.
It's a good time to make a permanent change in my environment. I have a lot of faith in the possibility of absolute change.
When I was envisioning the kind of home I wanted, what I saw was a home that supported absolute well-being. It was simple and uncluttered. There is a sense of spaciousness and peace. The possessions are few but meaningful. There is peace, and love, and a feeling of liberation from all the demands of modern life. It is a refuge.
To get there I need to discard. I need to go into a deep period of discarding everything that I don't love.
